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Name: Esther
Birthday: 9/28/1982
Gender: Female
Interests: God and Art;
God and Food;
God and Families
Expertise: Having no sense of direction
Occupation: Student
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Member Since:
7/22/2003
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| I wiggle my toes, straining with with every fiber to touch them. My body sitting down at an almost perfect 90 degree angle, my arms stretched forward trying to grasp them. Failure. I have one particular audience member who thinks my stretching is comical, he laughs at me every time...
It's been 1 year and 3 months in Vegas, and if i was forced to sum up last year and part of this year, it would be... stretch. I have never been stretched so far at this church. Not to self-pity myself, but I thought the Korean churches broke me, abused me, and tested me. It's an arrogant thing to believe you learned it all, and I'm constantly reminded of that here at Epic Church. Except, instead of the hierarchical-elder-respect bull crap, politics, getting kicked around by insecure leaders, we're being stretched here for our benefit. Which also constantly reminds me how thankful I am that God still believes he can use us, and that he's faithful when we're not.
I've taken "effective leadership" semester long courses, I've read "building a leader" type books, and I would sit with my cynical pretentious attitude looking down at the churches I've been apart of, yet failing to realize how insufficient I am. We don't know how long we'll be here in Vegas, but I've been stretched so far with my emotions, struggles, relationships, and leadership that if were to leave right now, I could say with confidence, I learned and grew.
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| Today i celebrate 4 years of marriage...
I told a married friend of mine yesterday that my anniversary was coming up, and i joked saying, "i made it!!!" We both had a good laugh. When i would repeat it with other people, they would freak out saying things like "what do you mean you made it?? are you guys not happy?? what's going on?? etc..." She cleverly stated, "you must have told that joke to single people, because every married woman knows what your talking about." Again we busted out laughing. Good times, married friends are great.
Actuality, Billy and i have been together for 7 years now. And in 7 years, i can say with full confidence that the Billy 7 years ago, is not the Billy now. People will change on you, and the hardest lesson i had to learn is choosing to love someone for exactly who they were, are, and will be. Marriage gave me glimpses of how our heavenly father is gracious, i can't even imagine what my own kid's will teach me (oh by the way, if we have a son we're naming him Aragorn Cho... you heard me, yes from LOTR). I think i can actually say though, that through the hard times, we are now reaping the good times. I'm scared because i don't know how long it will last-- lol! After all, 4 years of marriage is still in it's infantile stage.
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| "The Gospel message is: Your more evil than you dared believed, and more loved than you dared hope." - Dr. Tim Keller | | |
| Stupid Xanga... i finally found out how to 1) check my subscriptions; 2) post a new web-blog.
Some random updates since I've been here...
1) I can't seem to keep up with Vegas high paced lifestyle. I feel like i'm always overwhelmed with things to do, and then when i get a grip on some things--- my day is gone.
2) I watch movies by myself often these days. Billy works nights, and Toni has a baby, and everybody else is either still in school studying, working, or just doesn't want to watch the movies i want to watch... so what do i do? I go by myself. This month i watched: Atonement, Penelope, and The Other Boleyn Girl. I sound like a loser don't I?
3) I'm paranoid. There have been too many crime stories i hear about in our area that i can't stay home alone for more than 3 hours without freaking myself out. After the movies i watch by myself, i race to my car because i'm scared that i might get attacked- lol.
4) The mountains are beautiful. I missed the mountains, i randomly stare at them.... while i'm driving.... and then almost get into a car accident. lol -- jk, ok i'm not joking. But i do have urges to hike up the ones by my house. Billy and Toni keep informing me of all these murders that happen in the mountains--- which get me paranoid so i just stare at them rather than actually hiking them.
5) NO I am not pregnant- i just gained weight! I've been approached 3x if I'm pregnant.... i say I'm fat--- which leads to this uncomfortable silence. jerks.
That's all that i could think of to update this post. Hope you enjoyed it.
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| We are in VEGAS!
After 27 hours of driving in 2 days.... we made it. Oklahoma, you are not a nice state. First the snow, then the curves, and then the tolls--- not nice Oklahoma.
Anyway, we are here, and it's surreal. Usually we're here for vacation, but we're not here for vacation anymore--- we live here now. I feel like i'm preparing myself for a long vacation.
Missouri--- we will miss you. It brings me great comfort knowing that our new senior pastor is from Missouri, i feel like i still have a little bit of MO in Vegas. I will miss my church immensely and my school. It's been 7 years since i've lived here, i hope Vegas doesn't freak me out. | | |
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